Last minute plane rides and babies

Hello lovely people!

I am coming to you from 30,000 feet in the air. Thats right, your girls on a plane. and she’s headed for Boston!! My mum and I decided last minute to take a weekend t6rip to our lovely home state of Massachusetts. We are going to look at a few houses around the city, seeing as were trying to move there. I am currently sat next to the most adorable baby.

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He is so precious and I have cuddled him half this flight. He’s only 10 months old and is a pro at flying! His names Elise ( ALL MY GREYS ANATOMY FANS SAY HALA) and he currently has on the cutest striped onsie I’ve ever seen.

As soon was we land we go straight to the hotel, where we are meeting my moms best friend from college and her daughter, who is like my sister. From there we will go to dinner, probably the moms will go out for a few drinks and then they’re spending the night at the hotel with us! SLUMBER PARTYY!! I’m so pumped.

Well thats all I have for now signing off 🙂

Sarah xxx

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Youtube?!

Hello lovlies!

OMG two posts in one day?! What is happening?! Don’t worry I’m not going crazy! I just wanted to let you all know…

I HAVE UPLOADED A YOUTUBE VIDEO!!!

Yes you read that right!! Its the 50 facts about me challenge (even though theres not 50 facts 😉 I hope you will all give me a chance and check it out and give me some feedback on it! Thanks guys. Talk to you soon!

Sarah xx

My Current Favorites

Hello everyone!!

Today I thought I would do something a bit more upbeat. So why not a favorites?! I always enjoy reading or watching peoples monthly favorites. Now I’m not someone who changes my entire morning routine every month or gets a new product every month so these will most likely be every few months. (although I wish I got a new product or item every month!!) so here you go!!

1. Morphe x Jaclyn Hill palette

ok it was recently my birthday and my friends being the greatest people in the world got me this palette! and all I can say is WOW. IM IN LOVE!! It is so pigmented and beautiful and the shadows just glide on. The have a variety of matte and glittery options. I wore a smokey bronze look yesterday and it last all day! I have really oily eyelids so that never happens for! If you’re looking for a new eyeshadow palette you should defiantly check out Morphe. more specifically the Jaclyn Hill palette!

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2. Paisley Boots- TJ X

I got these boots on sale at TJ Maxx (Also known as Tj X). I absolutely fell in love. They are comfiest most amazing boots ever. I wore them for the first time a few days ago and went to a garden and took some pictures. Here are the results… IMG_2706.JPG

Anyhoo! These boots are Life saving!!! You can pair them with almost every outfit trust me you’ll get soo many complements!

 

3. Love and Gelato-

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I have enjoyed reading this book very much!! Its about a girl who’s mother just died of cancer. Her moms dying wish is for her to go live with her college friend in Italy. This “friend” turns out to be her father. So she’s stuck in a new country living with a man she’s never met right after her moms death. She is gifted one of her moms old journals when she lived in a Italy. She finds out all her moms secret spots and the story of her life before. 10/10 would recommend.

4. Benefit Roller Lash Mascara-

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I am in LOVE with this product! it makes my lashes look like fake ones haha!! I got a tester for this product cause my friend, S, suggested it to me. I immediately fell in love. I have naturally really short stubby lashes and this makes it seem like I actually have lashes! It grasps each lash and adds so much volume and length to each individual lash. Defiantly a recommendation from me.

 

5. and finally drum roll please…

LUSH!!!

Yes I have been loving lush recently!

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More specifically their bath bombs. If you don’t know what a bath bomb is its a little ball that you place into your bath and it melts into the water and make it these beautiful colors and smells. My favorite right now has got to be twilightUnknown.jpeg

It make the water this beautiful pink and blue color that faded into a dark purple with specks of glitter floating around. I love it to much. The smell is very floral and I would defiantly recommend this or any lush product. I have many allergies and if you go in there and tell them all your allergies, they’ll point out what you cant and can have. It’s amazing!!

Thats all I have today for you amazing people! Hope you all have a lovely day 🙂

Sarah xxx

 

 

 

 

 

Monsters

“Draw a monster. Now why is it a monster?” Is it the scary teeth and claws, or the size of the monster. My monsters don’t look like normal monsters you see in movies. My monsters are the ghost of the past. What has happened and what could have happened

What if’s are on of my monsters . What if I did something different. What if i didn’t do this or that. What if. Thats the question I ask myself everyday. What if I had just kept my mouth shut. Would I still have these people in my life. Would I be happy? Or would I be dead?

My mind is my biggest monster. If its left alone it just sits and thinks and thinks. It doesn’t ever stop. Everywhere I look I see a missed opportunity. My illness tells me I did everything wrong. but what do I think..

Do you ever just meet those people your drawn too. There’s something about them that pulls you in. Those people are my monsters. The kind you can’t control yourself around. The kind that take over life in the best and worst ways possible. The people who have the most influence on you. Your mind just goes blank and everything they say is right in your mind. I had one of those. and it almost killed me.

Monsters.  They come and go. Some last forever. But you overcome the fear. I’ve learned that I can live and still have some monsters. Monsters are scary but what makes them monsters. What makes them so scary? If you can overcome fear itself you can accomplish anything. So I challenge you. Comment your monsters below and see if you can come up with a way to face your fears. I defiantly have just by letting go of my monster and accepting it..

Love you guys

Sarah xxx

 

Life Update  

Hello lovelies! 

Well what a week it’s been! Well actully a few weeks! In and out of the hostpital is not fun!! Yep you read that right. I was back at Childrens. Yipee. I went back Wednesday and got out Sunday morning. I just needed to be in a a safe place so I didn’t do anything to hurt myself. I’m now out and going to PHP (partial hospitalization program)  I’m actully writing this from the php lobby waiting for my mum to pick me up! Anyhooo! I just wanted to check in with you all and thank you so much for your support. It really does mean the world to me. You have no idea how much it helps me ❤❤ thank you again and hopefully things will be back to normal on here soon!! 

Cheers! 

Sarah xxx

Live

Hello everyone

(TRIGGER WARNING – This post will deal with topics such as suicide and depression)

It has been quite a week for me. I have been absent from my blog because I have been in the hospital actually. More specifically a mental hospital. Yes you read that right. I’ll get into that later but today I wanted to talk about some reasons to live.

I have struggled with anxiety and depression all my life. I don’t remember a time when I didn’t have these feelings. These past few days have been really difficult and I have had a lot of time to reflect on my life and the people in it. Soo.. here is a list a reasons I need and want to live..

  1. I want to start a family- This is my number one goal in life. I want to start a family an watch them grow up. I want to able to become the cheesy stereotypical soccer PTA mom. I want to see my kids graduate and move on to bigger and better things. I want to grow old with someone I love.
  2. I want to see my siblings grow up- I have two younger siblings and an older brother. I want to be able to see my big brother graduate college, then get married and start a family of his own. I want to see my little sister succeed in life. I want my baby brother to defy the odds and do whatever he wants in life. I want them all to thrive in the world
  3. I want to help people- My goal in life is to help people. That’s all I want to do with my life. Hopefully after college I will be able to go into the peace corps. I just want to make a difference in this world that makes it a more positive place.
  4. I want to be able to love- I want to be able to hug my mom and dad. I want to be able to hang out with my best friends. Heck I even want to be able to get into fights with my siblings! I just want to be able to spread love everywhere I go.
  5. I want to love myself- I want to love and appreciate myself. I want to grow up and look and the mirror and be proud of what I’m looking at. I want to love my body and accept all its flaws.I want to not give up when things get hard. I want to love myself.

Over this past week I attempted to kill myself. It was so scary but before I could do it I came to my senses and called 911. I was then taken to Seattle Childrens and admitted onto the PBM unit. I spent 3 and half days there and was finally discharged today. I am extremely grateful for all the support I had. I have realized in that time that I need to take charge of my life. I need to get some people out of my life. I need to stay close to more people. Just being in a mental hospital gives you so much perspective. There’s kids there just like you and they manage to stay so positive and supportive throughout what they’re going through. I just wanted to share this all with you because this blog is a way I express my emotions and life. This is my life at the moment. So please. Hug your loved ones, take charge of your life, and LIVE IT!!!!

 

Sarah xxx

Equality 

Hello friends. 

I wanted to share a video with you all today. I was really inspired and truely touched by logic’s performance tonight at the VMA’s and I wanted to share it all with you if you haven’t seen it. It is a message about equality for all. A message to bring awareness to suicide and anxiety. I love this album and all it stands for. Please give the video a watch. ❤

Thanks for watching. 

Sarah xxx​