How are you all? I hope you’re having a lovely summer! At the moment I am on vacation in Boston. If you are a long time reader you would know that I am originally from Boston and my whole family lives here. I am currently staying at my grandmothers house where most of my family and friends hang out at while we’re here. They have a pool and we’re always having parties and friend over to swim and have bbq’s. I get so self conscious around everyone. I struggle a lot with body positivity and eating right. I suffer from an eating disorder so its a real struggle for me. All my friends are a lot skinnier and small than me. I’m quite a curvy girl and I’ve always hated my curves! I was just always told they weren’t pretty. By the media, by people I know, by myself. I recently had a group of friends come over for a little get together at the pool and I felt so uncomfortable! There was also this guy I like that was there and I was so anxious and jittery around him.
Today I went to an amusement park that had a bunch of waterslide rides. I was actually contemplating just going in my clothes I was scared of getting judged by these strangers. Ahhh I don’t know why I’m like this. Arghh. Anyway other than that Boston is going very well!! We’ve been looking gat houses while we’re here and we saw the perfect house!!! It is on a lake and its so amazing and I love it so much 🙂
Sorry for the short update. Working on something for you all 😉
I hope you all have a lovely day ❤